Inevitably Teen

During this awful time I can’t stop myself from thinking if this will be the limit to the experiences I’m gonna have.  Will I never have a first kiss?  Will I never experience a hug from my best friends again?  Will I never make physical connections again?  Almost every morning I wake up with a thought, a hope that maybe, just maybe they’ve found a cure.  I think about the places that I could’ve visited.  The Eiffel Tower in Paris, The Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco.  Would I never be able to discover new places? Travel to Australia, New York.  All these thoughts keep me occupied during the days whereas at night, it dawns upon me that I can’t even meet my friends down the street, then it hits.  Every night, tears fall down on my cheeks.  I think about all the memories I’d already made and miss the people I’d made them with.  Now all I have are pictures, calls and texts. I miss the h...

Does a sudden instance or a memory ever make u feel an emotion so deep that you have to react to it in a certain way, then and there in that moment because if you don’t you just feel heavy inside.  Do you ever feel the need to say something that you’ve been thinking about in your heart and in your mind but you know that the thought can’t touch your lips?  Well it can but you’re    afraid of what it might result in.  Many a times when we’re unsure of the outcome of certain things we tend not to try them out with the fear that we may loose what we have presently and the expectations we have might crumble into nothingness. In moments like these we need to be reminded of a certain friend we have which waits for no one. Our friend....”time”. The most precious thing in the whole world. Time can be good or cruel to you.  But you will never know until you take that chance and let that thought touch your lips. When you free your heart and mind ...

Sometimes I feel like I live in a gap between two worlds, one world that I have to wake up to every morning as the sunlight hits my face, a world in which I have to be adherent of the rules and live in a place dictated by others.  A place in which i sometimes feel the the fear of ageing and dying before I have figured out what it is I've been put on this planet to do.  The other world is sweet, misty and fresh, inviting adventures into the unknown, soaking in ancient wisdom and comparing it to new discoveries;   the sunlight turning into moonlight and the. spell of eternal life is never broken.  Perhaps in that gap I should repair the bridge I had forgotten, the bridge that connects one side to the other, but truth be told, I don't want to.   I don't want to because not only do I not have the energy to fix what's broken within but also because I am wild.  I am a wandering nomad, I belong everywhere and nowhere at the same ...

So I haven’t  been posting in a while mainly because when I felt like I had something to share I just stopped that feeling from taking over me and ignored it...  I kept doing this just to see if I could actually push these feelings back because I didn’t think anyone would want to hear what I had to say which turned out to be wrong... Many people around me started to notice and asked me what was wrong and I didn’t have an answer for them mainly because I myself wasn’t sure what I was doing or why I was doing it... If you’re a person like me you tend to overthink whatever you’re doing and let those thoughts take over you and forget the whole point as to why you were thinking in the first place...  In this process I learnt who my true friends were and who were the people who actually cared about me and also learnt about the people who were friends with me just for the sake of popularity or just to use me but this process also has its negatives... I felt...

The hardest thing about growing up is change... Don’t you feel like whenever you meet a new person or make a new friend you realise that they have changed you a little either for the good or for the bad but they have... And in some way you have changed them to....  I feel the secret to life is that PEOPLE CHANGE PEOPLE... I know this through experience myself... For a while I was influenced by a person so much that it completely changed my personality and perspectives on a lot of things in an extremely bad way but.....  luckily a friend was there to always enhance the good in me... Through all of this I really lost myself and had to find and discover who I was again... Soon enough I did but I realised that THE PEOPLE AROUND US ARE A MAJOR PART OF WHO WE ARE... They are the ones who are supposed to be there for us when we need them the most and this only happens through trust...  My luck with friends had not been so good... I’ve had...

You know when you need to study for an exam or a  test and all you actually want to do is sit and be on your phone or just lie down and procrastinate, because you feel like you’re anyways gonna fail.... Trust me I’ve been there and done that but instead what I should have done is focus on what I have to finish.. You might think that there’s a lot to do... or how will I do so many chapters in a day, but instead all you need to do is just start.  And you should start with something that you like and forget about how much you need to do because that will just psych you and gradually you will get into the flow and be able to finish...  The biggest problem with me is procrastinating...  I followed this and it really helped... Just go step by step, one thing at a time and you’ll get there..