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Finding Myself...

So I haven’t  been posting in a while mainly because when I felt like I had something to share I just stopped that feeling from taking over me and ignored it... 

I kept doing this just to see if I could actually push these feelings back because I didn’t think anyone would want to hear what I had to say which turned out to be wrong...

Many people around me started to notice and asked me what was wrong and I didn’t have an answer for them mainly because I myself wasn’t sure what I was doing or why I was doing it...

If you’re a person like me you tend to overthink whatever you’re doing and let those thoughts take over you and forget the whole point as to why you were thinking in the first place... 

In this process I learnt who my true friends were and who were the people who actually cared about me and also learnt about the people who were friends with me just for the sake of popularity or just to use me but this process also has its negatives...

I felt like I couldn’t share exactly what I was feeling mainly because I didn’t think people would understand but I was clearly wrong... 

I hadn’t realised that people surrounding me were going through a similar thing and I should share my problems not only to open up to the people who love me but to help them understand that they’re not alone... 

So then I shared my problems with them and it actually helped me a lot and I came out of my shell which felt really good...

So now I thought maybe instead of overthinking everything, I should just say and do the first thing that comes to my mind even if I thought it was dumb or mean or funny or smart or stupid, I just said it.... 

This also turned out to be something that wasn’t quite working out for me... 

It took me a while to understand just what works for because it’s a process and it’s something everyone should do to help themselves understand who and what they are... 

What works for me is thinking and not overanalysing things and being smart about situations which meant stating my opinions and also remaining quiet when it’s needed, because if you don’t know how to address or add to a situation then your just gonna end up sounding dumb... 


In conclusion I just think that no one should ignore the process of finding oneself in fear of losing the people around you because if your friends actually care about you they’ll stick with in good and bad times... 

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